To the person who feels replaceable tothebrotherswelost, October 8, 2023July 2, 2024 People are easily replaceable. I usually don’t let this line of thinking prevent me from enjoying life during my manic phase. After all, it’s a universal truth that things change and people leave and we have to make room for the new people in our lives. So, I tell myself to enjoy the moment. Try those jokes out that you’ve spent hours practicing in front of the mirror. Laugh a little. Go on a random late-night eating trip and cross off that restaurant that’s been on your list to try out for months. Live a little. Be the life of the party despite your social awkwardness. Appreciate the moment and take in all of those smiling faces. Those fond memories you’re making are for you to keep. Lock them in like treasured possessions. Make as many connections while you still can. Because the joy you’re feeling won’t last forever. Because one day, every good thing you’ve been experiencing will fade away. Because one day, those people that you let into your life won’t be there. And one day, you’ll wake up and that belief that people are easily replaceable will seep through. But it will be different this time. How long until they’ve completely replaced you? A few days? A week? You’ll undoubtedly be alone in that dark room again. Lost in your own self-doubt. Wondering. What’s the point of making friendships when they won’t last? What’s the point of making memories that will be too painful to reflect on? Memories that will make you cry. Make you wish you never made them in the first place. The memory of the first time you connected with that person. The memory of the first time you saw their crooked smile. Heard their genuine laugh. The memory of the first time you two play fought. That nervousness you felt when you two first touched. It will hurt because there will never be the first time for anything anymore. It will hurt because you know that person is beginning to forget you. And soon, that person will realize just how much they never needed you in the first place. And you’ll ask yourself then. What’s the point in any of this? And you’ll take your phone out to look at the last text message that person ever sent you. And you’ll stare at the screen for a few seconds even though it will feel like a few hours. And you’ll turn off your phone and put it face-down on the dresser. And in the end, you’ll curl up in your bed and close your eyes. And the pain of losing that person and the loving memories you have of your time together will quietly put you to sleep. Share this:TwitterFacebookMorePrintEmailRedditTumblrPinterestWhatsAppLike this:Like Loading... Stream of Consciousness AnxietyBreaking NewsDepressionLonelyMental Healthnew postSadnessWriting
Stream of Consciousness To the person who has lost all hope December 8, 2023December 30, 2023 How did you find your way back here?Did you get lost again? Did the frustration and anger that was building up over the days finally get the best of you? Did you run back here to make it all go away? I know, people told you it would get better.But… Share this:TwitterFacebookMorePrintEmailRedditTumblrPinterestWhatsAppLike this:Like Loading... Read More
WOW! It’s like you took a glimpse into my soul and you wrote about what you had found. I relate to every single word of this post. It gave me Goosebumps because I’ve never read anything written by another person that so closely reflected my own thoughts and feelings. Please keep writing. I want to read more about your internal world. Reply
I didn’t realize how much someone could relate to my posts. I tend to write when I’m feeling sad. I hope you’re able to find comfort in my writings though. I will continue to write. Thank you for stopping by. Reply
True, people gonna replace us and we gonna replace someone too, but isn’t it scary to think that the person we’re thinking will be with us all our life is leaving us behind and we just can’t get over it Reply
That’s the reality of life I suppose. I had my very first puppy love. Young Love that I thought for FOREVER, but it was not meant to be. Life can really change your views in different stuff. Love might be a bigger topic. Every time you get hurt the next day you still put yourself out there. Wanting to feel new feelings that you have never thought you could feel or have felt with that person, but in the end, I would say, “THANK YOU!” For you made me grow. Thank you for this <3 Reply
I guess we never know how a certain person will make us feel until we experience life with them. But you are correct, when they are gone from our lives, all we can really say is “thank you for the memories.” Reply
Being replaceable can be a huge curse or a huge blessing. Sometimes it’s all in how we look at it. Thankfully, the fact that others can replace us also means that we can replace them… which is to say, this pain likely won’t last forever. Through the course of my life, I’ve learned I’m not for everyone. I had boyfriends break up with me because I didn’t move fast enough for them. It hurt because I really thought I loved them… and maybe I did. But I wasn’t for them, and they weren’t for me. In their own messed up way, they were doing me a great kindness by seeing that before I did. I’d have been hurt far worse had they strung me along and discovered it later. But that doesn’t negate the hurt of the moment that feels like it’ll never go away. I hope that everyone here who’s ever felt that way learns who they are and has a chance to find what I did: true love that accepts you as you are, and loves you even more because of it. Thanks for posting this. What a heartfelt sentiment! Reply
“This pain likely won’t last forever.” A simple realization that can be hard to see when emotions are involved. “But I wasn’t for them, and they weren’t for me.” You’re correct, but sometimes it’s hard to move on or let go when certain places or events remind you of that person. It just takes time to recover from the pain and whether it takes months or years, I agree with you and I hope that everyone finds love in which ever form it takes. Reply
Your deep writing ability is incredible. As someone who often feels alone and constantly worries about what the future brings, this spoke to me. No one is replacable, even when you think you are in the darkest parts of your soul. And what makes it ever the more depressing is the fact that sometimes the darkest things are the simplest parts of reality that we cannot deny. Thank you for posting this! Reply
Thank you for taking the time to read and write a comment. I’m glad that you were able to relate to certain parts of my writing. At least to know that you are not alone in feeling this way. “No one is replaceable, even when you think you are in the darkest parts of your soul.” You’re right, I think we are our own worst enemy when it comes to worrying about where we fit in other peoples lives and we tend to spiral into the darkest parts of our soul often forgetting that people tend to come and go, but we each serve a purpose in the lives of every person we connect with whether big or small. Reply