To the person who has lost all hope tothebrotherswelost, December 8, 2023December 30, 2023 How did you find your way back here?Did you get lost again? Did the frustration and anger that was building up over the days finally get the best of you? Did you run back here to make it all go away? I know, people told you it would get better.But how many times did they shamelessly utter those words?How many times did they get it all wrong? Yet, you foolishly listened to them.Hoping this time, things would be different. You were close to believing the lie too. Perhaps that new hairstyle did the trick.Or those expensive new clothes or that expensive new phone. You were finally putting yourself first.It was a brand-new you with a brand-new smile. But how long did that feeling of joy last?Just a while? Not enough?Was it ever real to begin with?A facade to mask the pain? You should have known better than have gotten your hopes up.You should have known you would end up running in circles around this maze again. Because no matter what you do, you eventually find yourself stuck in the same spot. Now you’re here because you lost all hope.In yourself. In the people around you. By now, you’re just so tired of running that you just don’t care. You’re not wrong for feeling this way.And I’m not here to argue otherwise. I’m just here to let you know that you can’t run away from this pain forever So why continue trying? Perhaps, this is where you are meant to be.Right here in this very moment.Not knowing what to do.Feeling lost and scared. Angry and alone. But perhaps this time, you can finally start to make this place your own.To use however you want.To decorate its walls with whatever you’d like.No judgment. No rules. Perhaps, this is the place where you can finally go to feel safe.Safe enough to cry. Safe enough to be yourself.Safe enough to let your true thoughts come out. Perhaps, this maze doesn’t have to feel so lonely.As long as we’re in here together. And we can reminisce about our past.Or talk about our future. We can share our pain. Or our guilt.Our failures. Or our achievements. Maybe we can even learn how to laugh again.Or to look forward to the next day.Maybe, here, we can learn how to simply live. I don’t know how you found your way back here, but maybe, together, we can help each other not feel so hopeless. Share this:TwitterFacebookMorePrintEmailRedditTumblrPinterestWhatsAppLike this:Like Loading... Stream of Consciousness AnxietyBlogDepressionGriefHopelessLGBTLifeLoveMental HealthPersonalPoemSadnessStoriesWriting
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“Perhaps, this is where you are meant to be.” After 45+ years and dealing with the same thing, that makes perfect sense. Like you said, I’m tired I of running. Great read. Reply
Running away from these feelings has been my automatic response but after years of running, I’m tired. I’m trying to look at things from a more positive perspective. Thank you for taking the time to read. I hope you have a happy new year! Reply
I really enjoyed reading this post. We try running but we must learn to embrace and study ourselves in these moments. Love it…just finish painting my walls. Reply
I’m glad you enjoyed my post. I hope you are learning to do things you enjoy and I hope that brings a lot of positivity to your life. Reply
E., I found this poem to be spot on as far as how depression feels. I am a fifty-year-old-woman, so we are not the same, yet we are. I related to getting hopes up and then running in circles again. My therapy is writing stories and poems with fictional characters about issues that I have or had. This helps me see things from a different angle. Thank you for your thought-provoking and hopefupl words. Beth Reply
Thank you. I often tend to write when I’m depressed and reflect on my writings when I’m in a positive state of mind. It’s amazing how helpful writing can be and I’m glad you’re using it as a form of therapy. I hope you continue to write and post more of your stories. Reply
“Perhaps, this is where you are meant to be. Right here in this very moment.” I also love this line- reality is the moment we have right now, the only moment. So wherever that is, it is where we are meant to be. How to move from there and leave the heavy loads we carry behind, is where your support comes in. Reply
Hello Judi, Thank you. I spent many years trying to figure out why things happened the way they did instead of focusing on the “right now”. It’s difficult and my own self thoughts tend to get in the way of this line of thinking, but I am trying to build a network of support that can help me during those difficult times. Thank you for your comment. – E Reply
What a beautiful piece of writing. It would be lovely if we were able to recognize this: “Perhaps, this is where you are meant to be.” earlier in our lives, and not struggle and fight but accept and embrace and learn. So much unnecessary heartache would be avoided. Thank you for posting. Reply
Hi Margaret, Thank you for the nice compliment. And yes, I too would have liked to recognize that perhaps there are somethings that simply can’t be explained in our lives and perhaps there is this unknown force that pushes us towards being somewhere or with someone at a the certain time and all we can really do is just live and embrace that moment. Have a lovely day, – E Reply
Such an eloquently written and relatable post. Learning to accept where we are and acknowledging our pain is crucial to starting to process it and heal from it. Reply